A cloudy day.

Hari ini Hari Rabu.
Hari ini hari kesedihan :(
Hari ini mendung.
Hari ini hujan.
Se hujan hati saya. hoho

Yesterday was just like hell..
Ssh nak madah cmne.. bgong eh.. :(
Mcm2 jak dlm utak kinek tok. ssh nk madah.
Next sem rasa nk jadi nerd jak.. Study ke hulur hilir, sikda nk gago papa gk..
No Facebook, No Outing, No Enjoying :(
Rasa nk mcm ya eh ! Dem ! :(
Tapi hopefully, ada hikmah dari semua tok..
To make me awake ! To make me realize i have dreams to fulfill..
My responsibilities towards my parent, my husband, suma ya mok di pike..

Im not blaming others for my failure..
Ssh nak padah. Most of them suma dtg dari my mistakes..
Mun ada pun dr org lain, mombok jak kali.. :(

*sigh* down baby down..
Ssh nk padah eh.. bingong..

Byk gila benda nak pike.. Byk gila benda nak di ambik kira..
Just hoping dat suma nya going to be okay..
Insya Allah..

Heartless

Yes.. Saya Heartless.. I've been crying x kira siang malam, each and every day..
Sedih, Jaik ati ngenang dirik..
Ngenang suma yang dah jadi dengan drik slamak tok..


Feeling so much better sikit, bila i found out, ada yg maseh care for me, even if were not that close before.. She listened to every single things yang aku padah.. I even cried, ntah lah.. Rasa mcm burden yg aku tanggung ya dah kurang sikit.. Tapi, still.. Xkan ada yg dapat merubah smua ya, unless i made my own decision to take any actions..

I need someone to guide me, I need someone to hold me through all those nightmare.. Tapi ada kah wujud ? Ada kah Prince Charming yg akan nyelamat Princess ya mcm dalam Fairy Tale ? Fairy Tale akan still remain a Fairy Tale.. Tapi, kinektok is Reality..
P my life nang dah rasa mcm dalam Novel.. Tapi ending nya belom di polah gik..
Entah Sedih, Entah Happy..

I am still hoping, I will be able to smile. Once again. Senyum yang sik fake.
Senyum yg reflect aku bena2 Happy..

Life is getting harder each and everyday,
I'm tired of living..


Tired of Living..
Tired of Loving..
I'm better off alone..


*sigh*